Some luck

How is it that when it rains, ...it floods.
I've been through my share of trials and tribulations, and as time goes by the outcome or situation gets bigger.
From just growing into the man that I am, to maintaining as a independent young man who has blown his pass blessings.
I spend my alone time trying to better myself and keep myself away from the nonsense of the world, but I believe that my past immaturity or negligence has shaken me back to reality.
Why me I sometimes ask...is there actions in my past worth losing so much?
Was I lacking being humble?....what
Still I wonder especially as my thumbs stroke the miniature sized buttons on my blackberry, will that type of stability come back.
I have much faith believing that, knowing and believing this I look forward to a better tomorrow.
But I don't want to wake up one day and look back and say I'm still here in the same position, I've let people change me/situations paralyze me/and my own thoughts keep me in fear but I still in spite of all this keep faith cause I know "trouble doesn't last always".

Diary of a strong-lost African American young man
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fasho,.fasho.shut.up.....

I have a past so what who doesn't,
Mines has a deep presence cause I have ghosts.
My ghosts are people who have hurt me and those who I'm tryna give up,
But for some reason I keep seeing them. I'm trying to make a new life but, the past won't let me unfortunately.
The names emara, monique, brittney, and dilia won't let me have peace,
The name beatriz mendez0is my only hope for now. Please give me hope.
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